Post by Boston Bruins on Jan 6, 2023 19:58:39 GMT -6
Sometimes life deals a wake-up call.
I felt it was time I updated the league to my lack of activity and involvement. I didn’t want to just post on the discord where it could be lost. First let me thank you all for being our little community, a sounding board and friends.
Corey, thanks for all your help simming over the past few weeks and thanks to Aaron for not pushing me and allowing me some time.
I tend to go from the super social, outspoken, joking, even assholish person I am normally to a super quiet, bottled up mess when things go wrong. Thanks to all for giving me space and leaving me to deal.
Things turned for a shit on Christmas in the evening. My son who is tough as nails was complaining about pain in his stomach. I thought he needed a shit and was cramping because he drank 5 glasses of juice and rarely gets juice, so you know what fruit can do. My sister who is an ICU nurse checked him as he showed some signs of appendix issue. She said I think he’s good but just keep an eye.
Bit of diarrhea, and the pains continued. By boxing day morning, he was in tears and the pain seemed even worse, so off to emerge we go. 5.5hours to see a doctor, and they examine, take blood and urine samples, but can’t do an ultrasound for two days as it’s a small hospital and no one in for imaging over the holidays, but they didn’t see the need to send to another hospital for immediate ultrasound. Ok, so to Wednesday the 28th we go. Son spends a couple days in tons of pain, crying, begging us to help him. I’m a mess throughout, trying to work but my mind is racing the whole time. Wife take son to the ultrasound appointment the 27th morning and has to wait 7 hours for results. No food and drink for either of them all day and son from night before. Results come and appendix ruled out. Thank goodness, no surgery and hockey season isn’t lost. Diagnosed with something called Mesenteric Adenitis.
I had no idea, but basically it’s swollen lymph nodes in the same area as the appendix. Go from the intestine to the stomach area. I hear lymph nodes and my mind starts spinning. Why the hell would lymph nodes be swollen down there. As my wife was there for results and I wasn’t I have many questions. Blood work only showed one abnormality and the doctor wasn’t overly concerned. Lymphocytes were just barely below normal but my wife said doctor had no concern there but we are referred to a pediatrician specialist at another hospital.
I go dr. Google to get answers and while there are things that can cause the swelling of lymph nodes, one of the things that jumps out is Lymphomas. I’ve learned more about Hodgkins and non Hodgkins over the past couple weeks than I ever wanted too. Now that was just from Christmas until the 27th.
My son had won a two day hockey camp for the 28th and 29th. He decided even in pain to try and go just to see. He is massively obsessed with hockey as I was as a kid. He literally just plays hockey non stop. So we drive to peterborough to try the camp. I was able to help him get dressed and he was ok skating in laps but then they go to edge work and c cuts and it’s too much. He’s in tears, he keeps trying but he just can’t do it. Lasted only ten minutes though and I tell him it’s ok I’m proud he tried. They had a lot of off ice stuff to like radar, skating treadmill, shooting area, would have been cool.
We get him home and let my wife know he just can’t do it, too much pain. He’s slated to go again the next day but I’m working so I tell the wife he should probably just take it easy. The little bugger wants to try and put himself thru pain the next day too though only because he felt bad his sister didn’t bring her stick to shoot on the off ice stuff. So nice he thought of her but just chill kid. So another day at work worried about him at home. More dr. Google. I also worked all of new years weekend and was on call as well. My son is needing me to lay with him to fall asleep with heating pad on belly each night with cries of “Daddy please help me” “Get this out of me” “ What if I never get better” I spent every second at home playing games with my kids and video games with my son, just spending time, because, well, Just in case you know.
I’m picturing this kid who is non stop energy, non stop hockey, stuck doing literally nothing for days now. I haven’t been sleeping, I’m not eating well, my stomach is in constant knots with worry. I’m picturing in my mind, “Is he gonna be able to play again” “What does chemo do” I’m looking up survival rates. I’m not in a good headspace at all. The appointment with the pediatrician wasn't until today so its been a long 13 days. You probably noticed that the past couple days I’ve said a bit more. My son’s pain had gone down a lot the past couple days. So I gradually came out of the shell I was in. I still had questions and bad thoughts in my mind, but at least he was improving.
Today we had the appointment and they spent a great deal of one on one time with him and thankfully he is cleared of anything serious like lymphoma. In fact his pain has so significantly subsided that he can start doing things he wants to as long as he is feeling no pain and of so just take a break. They suggest one more week before hockey though. He is super thrilled that he can get back to it soon though.
Me, I feel like I can finally breathe. A huge relief. I have been seriously scared. But I’ve also learned a lot. I’ll be totally reachable while at work but at home the phone won’t be used much until after the kids are in bed. I’ve been totally focused on just spending time with both my kids and it’s actually really really helped our home situation which had seen a ton of fighting from them, and a ton of us yelling at them and them just being mouthy. I think we all were taking each other for granted. That wont happen again. I’m scared straight. I don’t ever want to go thru what I have the past number of days in regards to the fear, worry, bad thoughts I’ve felt and couldn’t get out of my mind. I am appreciative for the time we’ve spent however just as a family. This may just be a blessing in disguise after all.
Anyways, again I thank you all and felt you all deserved an explanation.
PFHL is more than just a sim league. It is a community.
I felt it was time I updated the league to my lack of activity and involvement. I didn’t want to just post on the discord where it could be lost. First let me thank you all for being our little community, a sounding board and friends.
Corey, thanks for all your help simming over the past few weeks and thanks to Aaron for not pushing me and allowing me some time.
I tend to go from the super social, outspoken, joking, even assholish person I am normally to a super quiet, bottled up mess when things go wrong. Thanks to all for giving me space and leaving me to deal.
Things turned for a shit on Christmas in the evening. My son who is tough as nails was complaining about pain in his stomach. I thought he needed a shit and was cramping because he drank 5 glasses of juice and rarely gets juice, so you know what fruit can do. My sister who is an ICU nurse checked him as he showed some signs of appendix issue. She said I think he’s good but just keep an eye.
Bit of diarrhea, and the pains continued. By boxing day morning, he was in tears and the pain seemed even worse, so off to emerge we go. 5.5hours to see a doctor, and they examine, take blood and urine samples, but can’t do an ultrasound for two days as it’s a small hospital and no one in for imaging over the holidays, but they didn’t see the need to send to another hospital for immediate ultrasound. Ok, so to Wednesday the 28th we go. Son spends a couple days in tons of pain, crying, begging us to help him. I’m a mess throughout, trying to work but my mind is racing the whole time. Wife take son to the ultrasound appointment the 27th morning and has to wait 7 hours for results. No food and drink for either of them all day and son from night before. Results come and appendix ruled out. Thank goodness, no surgery and hockey season isn’t lost. Diagnosed with something called Mesenteric Adenitis.
I had no idea, but basically it’s swollen lymph nodes in the same area as the appendix. Go from the intestine to the stomach area. I hear lymph nodes and my mind starts spinning. Why the hell would lymph nodes be swollen down there. As my wife was there for results and I wasn’t I have many questions. Blood work only showed one abnormality and the doctor wasn’t overly concerned. Lymphocytes were just barely below normal but my wife said doctor had no concern there but we are referred to a pediatrician specialist at another hospital.
I go dr. Google to get answers and while there are things that can cause the swelling of lymph nodes, one of the things that jumps out is Lymphomas. I’ve learned more about Hodgkins and non Hodgkins over the past couple weeks than I ever wanted too. Now that was just from Christmas until the 27th.
My son had won a two day hockey camp for the 28th and 29th. He decided even in pain to try and go just to see. He is massively obsessed with hockey as I was as a kid. He literally just plays hockey non stop. So we drive to peterborough to try the camp. I was able to help him get dressed and he was ok skating in laps but then they go to edge work and c cuts and it’s too much. He’s in tears, he keeps trying but he just can’t do it. Lasted only ten minutes though and I tell him it’s ok I’m proud he tried. They had a lot of off ice stuff to like radar, skating treadmill, shooting area, would have been cool.
We get him home and let my wife know he just can’t do it, too much pain. He’s slated to go again the next day but I’m working so I tell the wife he should probably just take it easy. The little bugger wants to try and put himself thru pain the next day too though only because he felt bad his sister didn’t bring her stick to shoot on the off ice stuff. So nice he thought of her but just chill kid. So another day at work worried about him at home. More dr. Google. I also worked all of new years weekend and was on call as well. My son is needing me to lay with him to fall asleep with heating pad on belly each night with cries of “Daddy please help me” “Get this out of me” “ What if I never get better” I spent every second at home playing games with my kids and video games with my son, just spending time, because, well, Just in case you know.
I’m picturing this kid who is non stop energy, non stop hockey, stuck doing literally nothing for days now. I haven’t been sleeping, I’m not eating well, my stomach is in constant knots with worry. I’m picturing in my mind, “Is he gonna be able to play again” “What does chemo do” I’m looking up survival rates. I’m not in a good headspace at all. The appointment with the pediatrician wasn't until today so its been a long 13 days. You probably noticed that the past couple days I’ve said a bit more. My son’s pain had gone down a lot the past couple days. So I gradually came out of the shell I was in. I still had questions and bad thoughts in my mind, but at least he was improving.
Today we had the appointment and they spent a great deal of one on one time with him and thankfully he is cleared of anything serious like lymphoma. In fact his pain has so significantly subsided that he can start doing things he wants to as long as he is feeling no pain and of so just take a break. They suggest one more week before hockey though. He is super thrilled that he can get back to it soon though.
Me, I feel like I can finally breathe. A huge relief. I have been seriously scared. But I’ve also learned a lot. I’ll be totally reachable while at work but at home the phone won’t be used much until after the kids are in bed. I’ve been totally focused on just spending time with both my kids and it’s actually really really helped our home situation which had seen a ton of fighting from them, and a ton of us yelling at them and them just being mouthy. I think we all were taking each other for granted. That wont happen again. I’m scared straight. I don’t ever want to go thru what I have the past number of days in regards to the fear, worry, bad thoughts I’ve felt and couldn’t get out of my mind. I am appreciative for the time we’ve spent however just as a family. This may just be a blessing in disguise after all.
Anyways, again I thank you all and felt you all deserved an explanation.
PFHL is more than just a sim league. It is a community.
